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A little while ago I was awakened by screams. They were mine. When you try to jolt me back into awakeness when I am not prepared to be awake, my mind screams, and my body follows. I think it may be a defense mechanism to scare off whatever is around while the brain catches up. After just barely falling asleep, demanded my attention gets you screams.
In this case, it was my parents not screaming. Both of them. Knocking on the back door of my carriage house, which is in my bedroom. They were calling to tell me that my aunt had died. Today, I guess. My brain still not awake didn't quite catch what was going on. I can't imagine how my mother must have felt with her sister dead and her soon screaming in incomprehensible confusion.
Anyway. This is not a good day.
In this case, it was my parents not screaming. Both of them. Knocking on the back door of my carriage house, which is in my bedroom. They were calling to tell me that my aunt had died. Today, I guess. My brain still not awake didn't quite catch what was going on. I can't imagine how my mother must have felt with her sister dead and her soon screaming in incomprehensible confusion.
Anyway. This is not a good day.
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take it easy. screaming's no good for anyone. hope you all are doing okay, or will be doing okay soon.
As I said on ifMUD...
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You're not alone - my husband also wakes up screaming sometimes if I wake him. It is a disturbing thing all right, and something I have never really understood until your description. So thank you for that.
with sympathy
:-(
I am sorry for your loss. Please know that you have many shoulders to cry on and many people's ears to bend, shall you need to. Try to take it easy. Use your support system..... don't go it alone.
Brandy
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And since the screaming isn't a new thing for you, your mother probably understood better than you might think.
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