May. 22nd, 2007

Placebo.

May. 22nd, 2007 06:09 am
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I'm feeling jittery today. I'd like to attribute this to the four cups of tea I had today, when I normally only have one or two. Unfortunately, I was drinking rooibos tea, so I can't really blame a caffeine overload.

I set my alarm for nine o'clock so that I could watch Heroes live, but I decided I needed some more sleep, so I reset the alarm and went back to sleep. Anytime I do that, try to go to sleep with the knowledge that I'll have to reawaken "real soon now," I feel bizarre. My dreams become preoccupied by time, usually wildly contradictory. My dream self is constantly moving to somewhere else, trying to get to an unknown location zipping by anything that could give it context. I sometimes dream of waking up unable to come to consciousness—my eyes refuse to open or stay open. If I do reawaken, or think I've reawakened, the clock shows a passage of time that in no way reflects my febrile experience, and my heart constantly feels tugging, like accelerations, deceleration, and weightlessness.

And then the second alarm kicks in, and I forget it all.

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