Life...don't talk to me about life.

It occurs to me, today, that I have spent far too little of my lifetime living, and far too much of it thinking. This occurs to me so suddenly, because last night I had a very clear example of what life is like without the brain getting in the way.

A possible relationship with a friend did not move to a more intimate level (for reasons which may or may not be discussed at a later date). But my experience was very unusual in that I didn't feel the same acute anxiety over the occurrence as I have had in other relationship beginnings and non-beginnings. I attribute this to the fact that I was, for the first time, actually aware of what was happening, instead of worried about what might happen.

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Cheer up Sleepy Dean.

Last night I fell into a nap while Conan was on the TV. Although I was asleep, I suspect that he did one of his old "driving the desk around" skits. Now, I can't be certain, since I was asleep, but I suspect that, since he no longer has Andy to ride shotgun, he pulled an audience member to aid with the comedy-jokes. I suspect all of this, because this is what happened in my dream, and the skit ran in and out of the foreground of my dream for quite a while.

Here's the kicker: in my dream, the guy who was riding with him was very clearly this guy. Why? I don't know, except that I happened to see his picture while looking through my FOAF page. I've never met him, and I didn't even read the entry that I saw his picture on, yet there he was. With Conan. Driving the desk.

Rara Avis.

Juana Molina is coming to LA next week, which means I may finally have a chance to buy some of her CDs. They don't seem to be available outside of Argentina, but presumably she will have them at her shows. I think I'm going to aim for the in-store performance at Rhino Records rather than the real concert at McCabe's Guitar Shop so that I can conserve money for the albums.

Pretty much the only US-released song by Molina is "Rara" on the soundtrack of Star Maps. But it's such an addictive song that I've always wanted to get some more. I finally get a chance.